As a kid, my nightmares were about monsters.
Now, my nightmares are about my life.
As a kid, I’d go to my parents,
and they’d tell me monsters aren’t real.
Now, I go to myself,
and tell myself my monsters are real.
As a kid, I’d watch a movie about ghosts.
Then, ghosts would haunt me in my sleep.
Now, I live life,
and my life haunts me in my sleep.
As a kid,
I’d wake up before the monster killed me.
Now, I wish to stay in my nightmares longer,
to see what would’ve happened.
As a kid, I’d run away from the monsters in my nightmares.
Now, I have nightmares because I run away from my monsters.
I have a tendency to suppress what’s bothering me internally. It manifests in different ways – like nightmares.
Holding myself accountable by writing that I will explore what’s wrong inside.